why i started writing

i should do an introduction but i'm sorry, i'll tell a back story about my decision to start my journey on Substack instead.

the starting point of my story is that i have always loved to write. I find solace in knowing the words i scribble are mine, that my mind speaks in a simple, beautiful language that has the ability to capture hearts

writing has always been the most consistent part of my life. it is the only thing i do naturally. yet, for all of my life, i have never written for the eyes of people who are not close friends and family. i believed many lies about myself which caused me to bury this natural part of my life so deep within me, that it only existed in a book stationed underneath the pillow that lies on my bed

this is my first attempt to write outside my journal, my first attempt to write words that you (a non-member of my family- if there is such a term) can experience

before i go on, i wonder. has anyone felt this way before? people tell you you’re loaded with gifts but you can’t seem to find the confidence to put them to use?

is it just me, can anyone relate? please,

so what changed?

i wish i could say that i came to this decision by myself. probably after reading a powerful piece that dared me to take control of my life and unleash my potential. the truth is, i had read several of such pieces by several brilliant writers. I had felt resolve swell inside me, willing me to take the bull by the horns, only to dissolve like cotton candy the moment i thought about the question "what will people think of my writing?"

thankfully, my new resolve is birthed by God and so i have confidence that this time, it is not cotton candy. i know i stand on solid ground. this is the real deal. i am backed by God, i cannot fail

what did God do? you might ask.

He gave me His word.

in church on sunday, we read the parable of the talents (matthew 25: 14-30), and God's word judged my heart right there and then. i finally saw myself for who I was. I was not shy, or inexperienced, boring or busy according to lies i had told myself. i was simply an unfaithful steward of God's gift.

So, in repentance, i have begun a unique journey in my life. i confess that i am terrified of being in waters that have been uncharted by me. i don't know what i am doing but God has promised to help me and give me the right words, so that strengthens me and gives me peace

my prayer?

is for grace to be consistent and as vulnerable I can be

unconventionally, i have saved my introduction for last (haha)

My name is Ejiro, and all i want is for you to experience God with me through this platform. 

i am excited that you're starting this journey with me. if you liked reading this, subscribe for more, it would mean a lot

(oh, and if you’ve found this interesting, please share)

With love, Ejiro 

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